He sings over me

"The Lord is my strength and my song; He has given me victory." Exodus 15:2

Today is the day after Mother's Day and I could not wait to get to this post! Yesterday was such a bumbling day that I did not find the time, but is that not a good thing?!

The last three Mother's Days were a little tough for me. Particularly last year's. I had woken up with sadness as it was just another day for me. I went to church, choked back the tears as we celebrated all the other moms, and came home to muddle through whatever plans of our own we had.

Looking back on my wallowing ways I know the pain I felt was real, it was raw, tender to the touch. I longed so much to be called "Mom". However, I also see where I had been bogged down thinking about myself and not opening my eyes to the struggles of others or giving honor where it was due. 

To be a mom is an HONORABLE thing... I recently wrote my own mom for Mother's Day: "Everything I am- you helped me to be." And these words cannot possibly begin to complete the circumference to the idea of which they portray. 

The bible tells us to count it all joy when we face trials and tribulations, but in the midst of these times it can be rather hard.

Can I tell you a secret? ... I still struggle with this when things come my way. But the truth is, God is not telling us to rejoice in the bad happenings of this world but to rejoice in Him.

Like Exodus 15:2 says He is our strength, our VICTORY, our song. 

Let Him be your song.

Just a few months ago, I let God be the tune to carry my notes. I realized I was created with purpose, I was created for such a time as this, and despite my days wasted wallowing in self pity I realized God DOES NOT waste. I can count it all joy because the One who gives me strength and victory also is my song.

Yesterday morning was Mother's Day and I woke up with a song in my heart. I decided to let God be my song. I feel like I am having a hard time expressing this in words; there it is again-- that inexpressible joy. It is beyond what I imagined.

Yesterday morning was Mother's Day and despite all the failed pregnancy tests of years past and the time spent waiting... I woke up ok. I woke up to new mercies because it IS another day and I am blessed to live it.

Our situation has not really changed in the way of an empty womb to a full womb-- nevertheless, my heart has changed from silent sufferings to that of a song bursting forth. I have strength, victory, and God as my tune. My heart is dancing to a new beat. 

And really- my God has blessed with twelve wonderful Haitians we get to call our own for awhile. We are over the moon excited to love on these kiddos and show them there WILL NEVER be a day they are not LOVED. We will get to teach them despite whatever sufferings life throws at us we can walk forward with God as our strength. We will Abide in Love because we Abide in Him.

As Oswald Chambers once said, "Faith never knows where it is being led, but it loves and knows the One who is leading."

I pray for you, whoever you are reading these words, that you love and know the One who is writing the words to your song and orchestrating the notes on the page. I pray your heart can find peace, comfort, and strength for whatever you are enduring at this moment, in the One who sings over you (Zeph. 3:17). Let Him be your song. He will carry the tune.

As always friends- Abide in Love and Abide in the One who is your song.